16, clumsy and shy

[cheesecakecj]

 all of the things I've been too nervous to say always end up spilling from my tongue. the words are sour with stomach bile i have to refuse to spit back out. i want these words to punch my teeth out. i want them to fall out and spell out apologizes like alphabet soup. i just wish i didn't regret everything i say, even if it is true.